My plate is too full. It is as simple as that. Full-time student. Full-time job. Christmas at The Salvation Army (work)–you seriously can’t even begin to imagine unless you’ve lived it. Planning a Kentucky/NYC trip. Planning a wedding. Planning a funeral and dealing with the aftermath. Making a point to make time for myself to do fun things. Normal everyday life stuff like cleaning, eating, taking care of my cat, being a friend, a girlfriend and family member.
I’ll not even get into all the emotional stuff and things in my head I’m trying to work out.
Going smoothly, it’s a lot. Going not so smoothly, as it has been, it’s a disaster. Luckily Christmas and school are near over…I’m going to try and not freak out between now and then, but if anyone can figure out how to stop time for about two weeks while I sleep, I’d much appreciate that.
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Melissa,
I know that it is hard to juggle all of those responsibilities, but trying to be involved in the happiest time of your life with your fiance while dealing with some of the saddest emotions of your life can be suffocating. I wish I could reach out my hand to you and make it easier. I know that I can't. As hard as it is, it is very necessary to deal with one item at a time. Allow yourself to heal a little more. You are getting ready to leave this stressful time behind you and move on to a new part of life. Lay all of this at God's feet, and let him carry you through it. Sometimes I stress myself out with school, my children, educating them….etc. There are many times that I forget that I really need God's help. You are strong and so capable, but even you need a soft place to land. I know your heart, and I know that you pray about these things. Sometimes, we have to just drop them at his feet and run away as fast as possible. He is able to hold those extra things that we don't have enough arms for. I love you. I hope things get better very fast.
Ditto what Stephanie said. You are a remarkable person Melissa, and your plate is full, but take tiny bites and pray for easy digestion! And do take one thing at a time as far as emotions go – let them out and don't store them up…looks like you are right here….always one step ahead of the game Melissa! Love ya…and keeping you in my prayers.
Melissa, where are you? I miss you and have also cried almost every day since I heard about mom. Hang in there, you are doing a lot of good with your life, I am so proud of you. Take every day a bit at a time; the hurt never goes away, it does get easier to bear. You are smart and strong, you'll make it. Love ya. Thinking about you always.